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[Apr. 3rd, 2005|10:43 pm] |
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what a fuckin awesome time ive had....
jade is the best.....i didnt know what i had until now... when its all said and done.... its really fuckin depressing though, i went upstairs earlier today to look for jade so we can go do something but she was back home in michigan.... i felt like a lost dog or something.... than i just felt really scared that she changed her mind about being with me.... its scary thing to think about and im trying my best not to think about it but when im bored my mind wonders to these scary places....
but anyways the best day in my opinion was saturday... yeah yeah yeah i woke up late enough to not be able to make it to the museums and what not but we went to the zoo instead which was a good time, those bat cages were scary but nothing happened so it was ok :-D after that we came back to my house chilled out for a little while ate some dinner than like it went down hill my sister mia has really been urking me for the past week with everything and i just had enough im just sorry jade was in the middle kinda... but anyways my sister mia just goes off on me for something i said to my little sister carla that wasnt mean at all and than jade told me to be quiet and i told her to shut up :( i was soo pissed at my sister than she went on to knock me down personally and she is the same fuckin way that i am so there was steam commin outta my head by than.. meanwhile jade left the dining room and went into my sisters room.... and i felt like such an asshole meanwhile i had like 3 people comming at me at once.... i was done with my sister mia even though nothing was settled and went to take care of what was more important which was jade.... i asked her to go for a walk with me so we can talk and tell her i didnt directly mean to hurt her feelings but it was like a brother sister arguement and im sorry she was in the middle of it.... hopefully she truly accepted my apollagy (sp?) but thats just when things started getting a whole hell of a lot better....
...i asked her if she wanted to get outta the house for a few and to take a ride to union station to see if there was parking on the side streets so i can make sure she got onto her train.... so we took the cruise downtown and it was a beautiful night out too...so we went and found what we were lookin for and than we headed back but like the whole time we were driving downtown we just had the music bumpin and we were just singing like idiots not knowing the lyrics to most of the songs but it was sooo fun..... anyways we were on the way back to my house after union station when i decided not to stop there i just kept driving we went all the way out to far far far suburbs... i showed her where i went to school and everything and than we just cruised back towards my house and singin like idiots still... i just kept lookin at her and smiling because i never had so much fun doing nothing but being with someone and enjoying every fuckin moment of thier company.... it was soooo great... we were exiting the expressway and she was like we should get some ice cream so we went to get some ice cream at a 24hr baskin robins and she ate it inside my car with the heat on full blast and i ate mine outside her window because i had rocky road ice cream and i didnt wanna drip any inside the car.... so we just messed arounf in the parking lot eatting ice cream and than she wanted to go to the cermak plaza and take pics of the stack of cars from waynes world because shes a picture nerd which is awesome cause i like photography as well... too bad i have a shitty camera or else id take more pics myself....
after we cameback from the ice cream and pic taking we both just unwinded and chilled in the computer room laid down on the futon and cuddled while we watched rat race.... i really really really do hope she had as much fun as me and i feel like a million dollars when im with her.... :) hopefully we are together again soon..... |
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| WHOA |
[Mar. 17th, 2005|06:34 pm] |
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i cant believe tomorrow is friday already where has the time gone?!!?!
hahaha this is great....
anyways i made this new little toggle switch for the guages in my car at work today it looks sweet... could be better but im not gonna complain about it....
how is jade gonna get her ass over here?!?! hmmmm |
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| Just Got Home yet again... |
[Mar. 13th, 2005|02:08 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | mellow | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Dave Matthews Band - Joyful Girl | ] |
what a crazy ass 2 days....
....Ok me and hade have barely been together at all and yeah this last time was the best...yes it was fucked up but lookin back at the whole situation it brought us closer i think (you agree love?) i just feel like such a pain in the ass to her mom and everyone else.... but not jade cause she has no choice but to deal with me!! hehehe :) i cant wait for u to chill with me over here love... its gonna be fun :)
I LOVE YOU JADE STONE!!! |
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| Freezing |
[Mar. 8th, 2005|06:53 pm] |
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| |  cold | ] |
well its tuesday and its freezing cold out...
i need to do my front brakes this week...
god ive been shivvering cold all god damn day this sucks
wheres jade to keep me warm?! |
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| Just Got Home.... |
[Mar. 6th, 2005|08:50 pm] |
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| | drained | ] |
So i was in indiana with jared and kyle for the weekend and it was a blast!
we left friday night at like.. 10:45 we didnt get there til like 4am thier time which sucked really bad..... we than woke up at 6am for the mopar cylinder head meet which was cool to see all those god damn race engines and old mopars and parts and everything..... after that we went to go eat at this little cafe which was nice i liked it the waitress was from england and her accent was super hot... lol.... anyways after we got home we were just fuckin around at thier house than we went to go find something to do and wow o wow.... we were on the country roads and god damn was that nuts just flying down these roads and going like 100mph over blind hills and sharp turns in kyles mustang... i nearly shit my pants lol....well we went to go pick up amber jareds woman and i felt instantly lonely and wanted jade with me but yeah:( anywho saturday felt like forever.... on sunday jared showed me how to weld on a arc stick welder which was super cool...i finally got home at like 6:45ish chicago time which sucked cause it was dark out but overall i just had a super good time out there... i just wish i was with jade to hold and hug :( life sucks and im tired... goodnight |
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| ? |
[Mar. 2nd, 2005|09:27 pm] |
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| |  blank | ] |
people fascinate me :( |
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| Sad |
[Feb. 20th, 2005|03:33 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | sad | ] |
| [ | music |
| | MCR - track 9 | ] |
i just got home from skellys... it was fun and i had a real good time...there were some girls there from high school and they were all gigley around me for some reason i dunno but i was kinda spacing out and just wanted to go to bed.... i wish jade was here but shes too busy with her life and what makes her happy so i guess imma just suffer and cry myself to sleep...on another note we had this like kinda arguement the other night about smoking weed and yeah shes kinda like makin jokes about it and i dont like it... its a touchy subject and i dont like it...jade i love you alot girl but your tearin me up with that shit...and im just super worried about her.... shes great by herself but peer pressure is a bitch... and no one likes to be alone all the time so i dont know what to do with that girl.... i love her and yeah just want the best for her and dont want anything to happen to her... but i cant help her 270 miles away from me... |
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| fill this out for me now love |
[Feb. 16th, 2005|09:22 pm] |
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:
[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you fuck me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how attractive am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you? |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 13th, 2005|07:21 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | loved | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Beyonce - solija :) hahaha | ] |
ok well wow.....
what a great few days...
so friday... i got fucked over at school i couldnt get my lug stud put in.... but i finally got the right lug stud... i had a huge headache and yeah just having a super shitty day :(. i drove home from school i get home i look under my car and i was leakin ALOT of coolant :(
i was sooo fuckin mad, pissed, agrivated, and just UGHHHH...
but as i was walkin inside i saw my new cell phone sittin in my mailbox so i got a tad happy.....
i went to work.. it went by sooo slow my boss was being a retard.... but i finally went home...
i had nick to deal with ugghhhh... i had to replace my left rear hub on the teg.. and swap out the thermostat gasket that i luckily found in stock at family auto.... so i go to nicks house to put his fuckin headlights in and he was kind of normal so it wasnt bad took like 25 minutes...
i went home ate some coconut shrimp and went right outside to work on the teg..... the rear hub was like butta shit went off and on in like an hour.. the longest part was driving the stud into the hub... than i took like a half hour break and went to put in my thermostat gasket which also went on fairly easy(which is about the 3rd time i have put a thermostat in so i knew what to do)....i finished up my car at like midnight.... i had to wake up at 8am to leave for michigan to see my love jade stone :-D... i came inside to put my away message up and fish was still over and i didnt even know so like we had a few hahaha... i got to bed around 2am i woke up at about 8:15am with a nasty headache... i finally left my house around 10:30 after forgetting my PJ pants....
so it took like 4 hrs to get there..... not that bad of a drive.... jade an i got some wendy's and than checked into the hotel.... hahaha it was amazing ass shit....:-D.... she is sooooo special... she got me a build a bear dog that is named larry and when u press his paw its jade herself and it says "i love you christopher muah!" its adorable... than she cooked me fetticuni alfredo with shrimp and broccoli it was good... the shrimp was excellent... i loved it all... even tho i kinda felt bad cause she put her cam on and i got nervous and i didnt say anything but i really wanted to surprise her and say something into the cam when she went to sleep but she wouldnt fall asleep.... :( but she knows i love her....
we played went to meijer after dinner and she got this little LED star thing for her ciggerette lighter and i got a ae86 1:64 model car its dope... lol i bought her some labatt blue hahaha she didnt even finish one :( so we went back to the hotel and played uno for like an hour and a half and i beat her ass 3 games to one :-D hehehe.... we than went to bed.... she couldnt sleep all night i kept wakin up and she was still up :( the bed was really shitty tho :( so i dont blame her.... we woke up and she cracked my back and than played some uno hahahaha.... i checked outta the hotel we went to big boy (i like that place hahaha) she got grilled cheese and fries and i got french toast and it was good stuff.... she took me back to pick up my car so i can head back to chicago and when we were together i didnt feel sad cause i knew i would see her again but as soon as she pulled away from the gas station i was balling my fuckin eyes out... i love that girl i cried like 2hrs of the 4 hr car ride home.... i couldnt stop :(
anyways im counting down the days til i see her again.... what is it about her that drives me nuts ???????????????????? |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 10th, 2005|01:44 pm] |
WHY DOES MY DOES EVERYTHING HAVE TO BE SOOOOOO FUCKIN DIFFICULT :(
FUCKIN ACURA'S... |
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| What a Hectic Bunch O' Days |
[Feb. 8th, 2005|05:34 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  rushed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Used - Let It Bleed | ] |
ok well i have been super busy.....
but since saturday i have been non stop hectic trying to get shit done...
well it started friday night at about 3:30am.. i get a phone call from jade...hahahaha she came to see me!!!!! lol shes fuckin crazy as hell... she came here with her friend kat out of nowhere... it was a big surprise... so she got here at about 9am or so... we chilled for a while than we went to go get something eat... her chocolate chip pancakes looks good as hell... i just got some gay other shit but i wanted her pancakes lol...so anyways jade only stood here to hang out for just a few hrs.... :( that was shitty but i still got to spend time with her so that was good.... after she left i had to figure out why my brakes were locking up outta nowhere i got that figured out... sunday was the super bowl but i was doing some painting to my driver side fender.. i painted that and my intake tubing flat black both peices turned out great...
monday comes around i realize i have to get my ass into gear if i want to go see jade this weekend and take my car.... so i took my lunch break at school and went and ordered my wheel bearing.... i than got thinkin i need to go to fuckin honda and get my thermostat... but thats another story in itself... so anyways i also needed a wheel stud and lug nut... something as common as this NO ONE has :( i went to 3 different part stores last night and not one of them had it... i am worried that im not gonna get it done :( ok well there is more to write but i gotta go to school be back to add after school... |
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| hmm |
[Feb. 1st, 2005|08:17 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | irritated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Bulls Game | ] |
Well.....
Yeah i dont know my life sucks.....
my hot gf is fuckin 250 miles away... this fuckin sucks i miss her sooo much. i guess i dont tell her that i do but i really do... :( its making me nuts...if i dont see her soon im going to go nuts...
im really tired... my nephew is the fuckin devil and such a spoiled damn brat.... my sister doesnt discipline him at all he just runs rampid throughout our house and i just cant stand the little bastard anymore, i know its mean but come on... today he had the privledge of sitting next to me at dinner and he is such a fuckin brat.... first he isnt gonna eat... so hes sitting there he spits a mouth ful of water onto my plate.... luckily i had nothing on it yet... but than he wants to eat so his mom makes him a plate.... he is eatting his food and mind you he is sick like just getting over strep throat... so hes eatting and than he turns and takes his nasty grimey dirty ass hands and sticks it all in my food... his mom does absolutely nothing to him... than he grabs the entire loaf of bread and bites it... again his mom does nothing so i cut that peice of bread off and give it to him....so he eats in the inside of the bread but leaves the crust he takes the crust and throws it into the bowl of salad.... his mom does nothing.... so he than starts crying cause he wants more bread and i wont give him any...so after 10 more minutes of crying his mom gives him another peice of bread which i guess he doesnt want and throws it at my sister which she just picks up and goes on with her convo.... this kid is pissing me off.. |
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| Do i have to fill out this line? |
[Jan. 30th, 2005|09:37 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | pissed off | ] |
| [ | music |
| | My Chemical Romance - Cemetary Drive | ] |
ok so jade just signed off like 25 min ago and i really love that girl... i cant put my finger on exactly what it is but something about her i just love.... its kinda warm in here :(...
i just got done playing fish in nba live 05 and i have lost again....
i have not won yet... its fuckin really annoying too... his team sucks he just gets sooo fuckin lucky its unreal... its really frustrating...
enough about my tough life playing video games i must go to bed now im fairly tired :) night love |
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| Good Morning.... NOT |
[Jan. 30th, 2005|01:24 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | awake | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Miami Heat vs. Houston Rockets | ] |
ok well i just woke up...
i ate a little lunch... (lol i woke up at 12:50pm :) )
i ask my dad if he needed help in my sisters room and he says yes...
so i go and help and he gave me this tv stand thing i was putting up backwards he tells me after its almost together so i take it apart and i have like 4 or 5 things in one hand and ONE nut falls out of my hand rolls on the hardwood floor and under the heater.... he than proceeds on FLIPPING out on me screaming and yelling and shit..... ahhhh what a way to wake up :( |
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| BLAH |
[Jan. 29th, 2005|10:11 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | worried | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Dashboard Confessionals - Saints and Sailors | ] |
yeah so today i feel like complete crap...
depressed.... sad.... lonely...
jade doesnt wanna be with me anymore i can feel it already....
EDIT: ok maybe she does :) |
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